Like the way taxes work or the appeal to tea. I don’t understand gang violence or country music fans or why we have daylight savings or what makes the engine run in a car.
But I think most of all, the hardest thing for me to understand is that people die. And the way everyone can go on with their lives, as if nothing ever happened, when someone dies. This morning I awoke to the news that an old friend of mine passed away in an accident. In one single moment all of these things that I thought I understood, thought I cared about, they were all null and my mind was blank. And throughout the day, I found myself getting angrier and angrier that the world around me didn’t come to a halt. Everyone kept on living and kept on caring about all the things that don’t even matter.
Today I learned that the world doesn’t stop for anyone. And lying here, heart broken, I don’t know how to understand. Everything happens for a reason, God has a plan.
I just can’t believe that this is where the plan for him ends.